Before I was born, my father left my mother, and my dad was never around. Since I was little, I've had abandonment issues. I would go to my aunts house over a weekend, and I'd cry uncontrolably when my mom would come to pick me up. I also remember doing the same thing when I would get really close to my babysitters, mom's friends, etc. Now I see that I am protruding this feeling of abandonment onto my boyfriend. It's like I have these panic attacks and I feel like there is this huge hole in the pit of my stomach. I always have doubts any time he says he loves me, or that he will do something for me, see me later, you name it, I doubt it. I also hold things inside because I'm affraid he won't want to understand this issue and he'll leave me. I know it sounds so pathetic, but I can't help myself, and I don't want to loose my boyfriend, he's a good guy, and I'm hurting him by feeling this way. Has anyone delt with an issue like this? How do I stop my feelings and get my mind straight?
2006-10-13
10:31:29
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