The depression has become so crippling I think I'm despondent. It took me five minutes to type that sentence. I really tried to get help; I went to a psychiatrist and told her everything. Know what that got me? Court commitment to a mental institution for a week on suicide watch and a $3,000 hospital bill with no health insurance. Part of my depression being money problems, I find the entire situation ironic. I got NOTHING out of it. And, I'm angry, but there's not a whole lot I can do about it. I don't think I'll ever go to anyone for help again, though. Not in the 'real' world. That's why I'm writing here.
I'm worried about myself. If at all possible, I'd love to just shake this haze off and get on with my life, but it seems the more 'treatment' I get the worse I feel. The suicidal thoughts have become more frequent again, but I currently don't have the energy to do anything about it. I've already 'gotten' help! How am I supposed to change, when I don't help myself?
2007-11-30
19:55:44
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