I just realised what I have been saying 2 myself everyday for the past month now, and it scared me. I feel like I want to exist in the world but not actually do the living. I feel like if I just died then people would barely react, I want to see their reactions. I've been telling myself that if I did die then I would be free to do whatever I want, I know that is a pretty big assumption but I keep making myself believe it, like I sometimes don't think about reality and do things without thinking. I'm not happy with where I am now. I can't think of any other way to get what I want. I know this is pretty complicated but I've tried the best I could to say what I've been thinking. I want it to go away but it just wont.
2007-11-14
06:25:59
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Francesca C
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Mental Health