Where do you find hope when everything goes wrong no matter how hard you try? I tried therapy, self-help book, hobbies, prayers, writing journals.
I know I shouldn't say this as a Christian. But I wonder why God put me in this world in the first place if my life has to be this painful, unendurable.
Yes, I could have tried harder. But I tried strenuously to stay away from drugs, alcohol, tobacco, sex.
But I couldn't overcome severe depression which soon caused lust problem. I only wish I could live normal life.
How can God let anyone live like this? I feel like I lost all my hope not just in me, but God as well. He should let me die from car accident or something if He has bit amount of sympathy for me.
He never listened to my pleas anyway.
2006-12-20
08:58:53
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