Yeah, yeah,,feeling sorry for myself...but you know, i dont' care. I am quite finished with all this. I don't have a single reason for being here. I'm not going to kill myself, because I love my parents too much,,,but I do want it to be over. my counsillor says i have a death wish...yes. I wish when I was driving my car would run into a pole, I wish that I would fall down the stairs, I wish I'd have a stroke or heart attack. why does God put us here and allow us to be so unhappy...Oh i've tried. I work hard and I've got a good job. sooooo...I still can't pay the mtg. I have a daughter that I'm making miserable because i'm not happy...I know I'm suffering from a mental illness..and i'm getting help for that, and i'm on meds for that....but how long does one have to suffer...4 or 5 years isn't enough??? longer...its been almost 10! and even though I'm getting "treatment" I feel worse than ever. I'm finished, but i'm too worried about everyone else to end it....what about me?
2006-08-16
09:09:20
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smt1967
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