Well for starters. I usually act straight, don't like when guys try to hit on me...i guess its cause i have lots of respect for myself. Im in high school and dont really have a relationship with my dad...i find whenever we fight/bicker, i tend to find guys more attractive than ever, while i hate my father even more. I think i'm looking for a dude to replace that kinda of relationship...i am seriously losing my "grip" (listening to a song with that lyrics lol) But i feel, i don't know which way to go, every time i convince myself of something, it becomes realer than real. So i try not to convince myself i am gay, or straight or bi. But because i do that, i battle my conscience and i sometimes become sooo lonely. I push people away cause i dont want them to know anything about me...i'm not so weird, i just think im different...and not different as "retarded" just not sure who the hell i am. But i just need to share this with someone, anyone ever felt this way? its not a good feeling...
2007-04-26
13:04:36
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Anthony L
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