I'm 18 and in high school and live with my parents. I'm going to a local community college, about 30 min from my house next year. My parents want me to live with them for another year or so but I don't know if I can. Because my parents and being around them make me feel so small. I love them and really appreciate that they try to do everything for me but it has made me get a big inferiority complex, made me feel guilty, and made me hate myself and feel incompetent, weak, and immature. When I'm around them it gets worse, and its getting to the point where I can barely stand being around them because of these feelings and I feel so at peace when I'm alone. The thing is though I have no money to get a place, they've kept me from getting a job for five years no matter how much I begged to have one, even just to get rid of some of the guilt. I decided that I can't let them keep me from having a job anymore, I need the money and if I'm getting a place I'm going to have to work basically 24/7 this summer, which I was planning to do anyway. But I feel like they won't have it, they want me to live at home, they even expected me when I was thinking of going to a state college an hour and a half away to commute back and forth every day and live at home. They're having a really hard time letting go and I get that and feel for them but at the same time they;re not TRYING, and I'm TRYING to be as understanding as possible but its just making me more depressed. I seriously just get so much satisfaction just going on my own and interacting with people and knowing I cna do it without them hanging over me, but its crazy they want to go EVERYWHERE with me even though there's no point of them being there and I can drive now. And my mom's nuts she insists on doing things like my hair sometimes and it makes me feel so immature and hate myself and she gets depressed when I don't let her do it. I mean its getting to me and my self esteem, its been going on so long. And I just can't stand up to them no matter how much I may want to so I'm thinking the best thing to do is leave.
2007-03-07
13:39:44
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leena
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