I've had the feeling that I'd be better off dead for the past 2 years. The feelings come back every other month or so. I always seem stressed out and cranky. Sometimes, I hate when I'm happy. It seems like people expect too much from me. I'm doing bad on tests, not wanting to do homework, I eat when I'm stressed and I just lay on the floor sometimes hoping time will stop and I can pull myself together. I could never physically kill myself but I just don't feel like living anymore. To me, killing myself would make people care for me. I'd be talked about, missed and loved. I believe my family loves me but they are always contradicting my attitude (I hate talking in social events). It really angers me that they do that and I don't want to change how I am so getting back at them and making them leave me alone, in my opinion, would be to commit suicide. I couldn't tell my parents how I feel, they wouldn't understand.
What is wrong with me?
2007-01-16
08:16:12
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darkskinnedxbeauty
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Psychology