i am 21 years old and feel depressed virtually all the time. i really just hate myself, stemming mainly from (i think at least) the fact that i have never had a girlfriend, and that i have never even had a girl really interested in me. i feel extremely ugly, both inside and out, and just feel like i will never be able to attract a girl. i have smoked weed for the last couple of years (i began just after my father passed away) nearly every day to cope, and it has helped quite a bit. but i am sick of the side effects, and also being seen as a 'stoner'. i quit during this period for over a month, but felt worse by the end. i am too ashamed to seek out expensive psychologists, am very hesitant and wary of anti-depressant drugs, and just dont really want to live anymore. my confidence and self esteem seem to be forever falling, but i feel like my only way out is not an option due to my family. after 21 years with no interest from girls, you do start thinking what is wrong with yourself
2007-02-10
13:02:46
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