My fiance died 1 1/2 years ago, and I thought I was over it. I went through the whole grieving period. I cried for a long time because I thought I couldn't live without him. I got over that. I've been happy lately, while still sad that he's gone, but accept it as a part of life. I just started crying all of a sudden for a new reason. Not because he's gone, but because I now feel as lonely as when I was with him. I used to think of the wrong that I did to him, and that I should have made the best of our lives. Now I'm thinking of all of the hurt he caused me. I feel all of that hurt now, all of a sudden. Not the pain of him being dead, but the pain of him trying to prove our lives to other people instead of making us happy...and of him not hearing me when I was trying to tell him how I felt inside, and him getting mad cause he thought it was an attack on him, but it was a cry for help from him. Don't get me wrong, we had a good relationship, despite the hurtfull times, but I feel it now
2006-09-26
22:52:43
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Curiousmom
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