I was best friends with my ex-fiance before we actually started dating but even when we were just friends i knew that i totally loved him. I finally got the courage to tell him on his graduation night. But he moved to Philly a couple of days after i told him, he didnt even respond to what i had told him. So i moved on and started dating another guy. Then one day my phone rang and i picked it up and it was him on the other line. He told me that he had moved back because he couldnt stop thinking of me and he told me how much he had always loved me since the day we met. At that point in time i was engaged to another man and told him that it was too late. But it wasnt i could not stop thinking about him and ultimately it ruined my relationship with the other guy. So i called him and we started dating. After a while we moved in together, and then he asked me to marry him. Everything was great, or so it seemed. I still do not even know what happened to end our relationship. But somewhere along the way something went wrong and I mean VERY wrong because it was a bad breakup. Somehow we managed to work through it tho and are still good friends. But Now he is with another girl. I knew it would happen sooner or later and i would have to find a way to deal with it. But it is so hard. I still love him more than anything in this world, and i guess up until now i was ok with us just being friends because there was still that chance that maybe we could rekindle the flame and try again. But now he has a new girlfriend, and he looks at her the way he used to look at me. So i know he really likes her. I am confused tho because there are times occasionally when i will catch him looking at me that way still but as soon as he sees me looking at him he runs right back to her. I dont want to be jealous of her and i am always nice to her because she is his girlfriend and i know that if i am mean to her he will get mad and i will lose his friendship as well. But the truth is that I hate her!!!! It is obvious that he still feels something for me or I would not catch him looking at me like that. But he claims to love her and it is definitely obvious that he does care for her very much or he would not look at her like that, and he is the kind of guy that will not say i love you unless he has analyzed it completely to be sure that he truly does, and he tells her he loves her all the time. he has even joked about making me his "Best Woman" whenever he gets married. He tells me that i am the best friend he could ever have and that he doesnt know what he would do if he ever lost me. He has thanked me for not letting our history come between us and ruin our friendship. And he is always telling me how great she is and even that she kinda reminds him of me sometimes. And i must admit she is really nice, the kind of person that under different circumstances i would be friends with. I cannot keep going on like this, it is killing me and every day it gets harder and harder to keep up the happy mask. So my question is what should i do? And how can i bring myself to be truly happy for the man that i love and the other woman? Will i be forced to feel this torn apart forever, always playing the loyal friend while my heart cries out in agony? How do i just hand over the love of my life to another woman without tearing my own heart out in the process? After everything that he and i have been through how am i supposed to just let all that go now? Somebody please help! I am lost and confused and slowly breaking down. I need advice desperately.
2007-03-18
17:37:00
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