For my sex aware life, the answer to me having sex was abstinence, but I did not see wrong in having it.
The idea first came from my Christian beliefs, but I did not continue to believe it for that reason, nor do I believe you go to hell for it. I believed in the beautiful ideal of first sex with the person you loved enough to choose to spend your life with.
I am now 21 and for the first time in love. My boyfriend respect my decision to wait, but would jump at the chance. I have had 2 pervious long-term relationships. I never seriously questioned my ideal of sex after marriage until now.
Of course the want of sex has been there, and is stronger then every now, but now I question if waiting is still for me. I am a very passionate and exploratory person.
Friends know my ideals and it has been a part of my identity.
I would feel guilty for abandoning a dream, and uprooted on that part of my identity. I would have a whole new world to explore, and someone that I wish to be very close with.
2007-02-13
09:54:58
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