My mother never hugged or kissed me or told me how special i was to her,she told me she loved me after about 34 yrs of giving birth to me and my instant reaction was disbelief and mistrust.Before she passed away i asked what i had done wrong and she replied,
"nothing but you don't cook for me".She told me i was useless everytime i tried to please her and told her mates tht i ws a 'bastard of a child like my father' & 'possessed', i was even told tht if she knew this is hw i wld have turned out she would have smothered me at birth.I suppose as an adult i should pull up my socks, put the past behind me and live my life, very true, but everytime i think i get somewhere it is followed by a set back of some sort.
i have been for counselling on and off for the last 15 years .
i exercise regularly and go to dance classes as these things make me happy but am not really good at striking up friendships as i feel that these people will only get to knw the horrible person that i am,any advice
2007-01-06
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