I have a dillema,
I want to be closer to God, but I have OCD (I'm on medication) and I can't stop thinming negatively. I pray to God to take these thoughts away, but they keep bothering me.
These thoughts are along the lines of "You only want to be close to God for attention", "You don't really believe in God."
"You don't have enough faith" and thoughts that just make me feel down and disappointed.
Then I pray to God to stop them, but when they don't go away, I get really frustrated and don't WANT a relationship.
But I do, yet I can't stop thinking that "All I really want is the IDEA of the religion and relationship" which I'm finding to be true!
But thats not what I trully want or need, and even now, My body automatically "feels down" when I even think about wanting a relationship!
I need help!
P.S: Atheists, I appreciate your concern, but I'm convinced in my own self that there must be a God somewhere. This question is directed at fellow-God followers.
2007-09-08
13:18:02
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treemeadow
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