I was diagnosed with depression years ago, started taking meds almost 5 years ago. I've been married just over 3 years, unhappy for most of them. I have no good reason to be unhappy, he treats me well, is a good daddy to our 2-year-old, works hard, and I know he loves me. I feel like I'm always looking for something better, though. Is that just because I'm a shallow, selfish b*tch? Or could it be that my depression leaves me feeling so empty, so hateful of myself that I'm hoping someone else will make me feel something? I know people will judge me, tell me I should suck it up and appreciate what I have. I'm miserable, though, which makes it really hard to appreciate anything. I feel like I'll always be in search of happiness, but I wouldn't know it if I found it. Is it even fair of me to stay with my husband if I'm always feeling this way? He's supportive of me, am I just using him for that support? I feel like such a terrible person!
2007-05-26
15:12:12
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