I've been seeing a guy for over 3 years on and off but thing is, he said he doesn't want a gf! He had a gf when I met him but I didn't find out until like a year later, after I had fallen for him big time. But I carried on seeing him, then his girl found out and it all went **** up! We stopped talking for about 4months, I had finally gotten over him, it was hard and I still had feelings for him but things go easier for me. Then after about 4 months we started chatting again as him and his girl broke up and then him and me started seeing each other again... Not only did I know, he was still seeing his ex ASWEL! Then, that really broke my heart, I just felt like I wasn't good enough for him, he always has an excuse not to be with me but he will still sleep with me and stay at my house every other weekend! And then, to my horror, his ex calls me up to tell me she's pregnant, suprise suprise, we could all see that happening! So yeah, that's another thing I have to deal with! It really hurts. I've never been hurt so much in all my life.. its all take take take... the amount of money he's borrowed from me and not paid me back, and now I'm struggling.. I put myself out for other people and dont get any thanks for it. Even though he doesn't treat me with any respect, I still have feelings for him! And for these 3 years I haven't actually met anyone I like other than him. I've been so depressed and I feel like I'm stuck in a rut I cant get out of, a hell hole! I find it takes the pain away a bit when I cause physical pain up on my self, or cut myself sometimes.
2007-05-14
04:19:27
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