Its been over a year since she left me for someone else, someone with money, also another abusive man, in my mind i want to hate her, but i cant let her out of my heart. I still care about her and love her more than anything. But I dont know what to do. She ruined my life and reputation emotionally, physically, mentally. I tried to treat her as a queen, even though i am not poor but low-middle class. I loved her and her family like they were my own because i dont acknowledge mine exists. Im 27 yrs old and I know I dont have much more time on this earth. Her "manipulation" of everyone around me with her lies and stories is killing me more and more each day and i cant wait to die. I have nothing left to be happy or pleased about. I have not been with anyone since her, not even gone on a date. And honestly i dont want to. I want to get out, but i dont want a relationship. I dont think i can ever care or love again about someone else. She has my whole heart. Maybe im just a loser.
2007-04-06
05:42:18
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