I used to love drawing but I haven't done it inmonths. I have this overwhelming fear that my skills have regressed and I'll have to go through months or years of work to get back to how it was before. I used to draw every day and I did it for the sheer pleasure of drawing. Then people started to notice my artwork and I couldn't stand all the attention so I stopped drawing. I have this conflict where I feel like I should be drawing because it felt like that was my identity and now it feels like part of me is missing. But when the thought of drawing comes up, I get terrified and even if I don't show anyone the work, I can't even tolerate my own bad drawings. I just can't enjoy it anymore. But then every day that I don't draw, I feel guilty, like I should be drawing. When I sit down to draw, I feel extremely uncomfortable and all I can think about is trying not to make mistakes and I get impatient. How can I get back the patience I had and start enjoying it again? Is it even possible?
2006-10-18
13:47:39
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