I did. I was raised by a pastors kid. My mom, after divorsing my dad for Biblical reasons, married a pastor. I really was a Christian and experienced the joy and peace within God. The bliss. In between euphoria I was depressed. I was diagnosed as manic depressive. Suicidal attempts didn't work out. I was found. I'd backslide and come back again and again. Finally I was 'healed' in church and was able to think straight. Then I realized that I believed I was bad and couldn't trust myself without God. That I was this sinner and Satan was trying to get me. That I was going to hell if I didn't believe, and think and feel Biblical thoughts. I realized that anxeity, panic attacks, mood swings and all the bit were from emotional and mental abuse in the Christian home I was raised in. The mind games 'we don't judge, but you just sinned'. 'It's all grace, but you just broke a law'. I left once and for all. I keep my 'healing' by power of the mind. Anyone else an ex-convert?
2006-06-11
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