I don't have patience with my mom. She doesn't function like normal people do. Every other time I try to help her with a task I lose my cool and say things I'm thinking, but shouldn't say. I feel scarred because of things from the past that still haunt me, of which she still hasn't changed. I can't cope with it, and she resents the fact that I'm not more loving. She throws everything she's done for me in my face, like I owe her my life because I can't get the strength to do small things for her. Small things, meaning, packing up her whole house to move, while my brother does nothing. She say she's not strong enough or able enough to pack up the house whatsoever, and she expects me to do the whole thing, giving me guilt trips because she bought me a brand new car last year. It's hard! I say I shouldn't about certain things about her life that need to change, thinking I'm trying to help her, but she always thinks I'm just ashamed of her or I don't love her or appreciate her. I don't know what to do. I don't even know what point I'm trying to make, or if I'm even making sense. I feel like maybe I don't forgive her for things that happened during my teens that she could have prevented, or maybe it's because she still does the same things, and refuses to change. It makes me angry that she won't try. I don't know. She says I don't love her when I say she needs to change certain things or when I don't feel like all responsibility for her tasks should be on me, because she doesn't have other people to help her. I told her I couldn't help her move all by myself, because I'm only one girl, and she just comlpains b/c I could have started helping her months ago, every month. I don't know what to do. I don't want to keep this car if she's gonna throw it in my face for the rest of my life when I feel overwhelmed with tasks she gives me to do. I don't live with her anymore. I pay my own rent. I didn't ask for the car. She just gave it to me because she said she loved me.
2006-11-16
07:55:38
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