i dont like this. i hate this. this feeling inside. all i can do is watch while the ppl i love suffer so much. all i can do is whine about how i have to move and how i'm losing my boyfriend and how i get jealous. so what? so many ppl have it so much worse! wtf did i do to diserve such a good life? how come all i can do is complain about stupid stuff? i hate it when others do it, so y do i? i hate this. i hate this so much. ppl are dying. and im complaining over nothing. omg, i have to move...woopdy freaking doo. i have moved before. what about the ppl who move more than once a year? i am lucky. now wtf did i do to diserve this life when so many other wonderful ppl are suffering?? y am i here? y is it i get to have everything handed to me while others work so hard? WHAT DID I DO????? Y DO I DISERVE SUCH A PERFECT LIFE????????? I AM NOTHING! I AM NO ONE! so y do i have it so good? and where do i have room to complain??? its not fair for other ppl. but its not like i'm complaining i have a good life. i just want to know why i do? parents who love me and all i can do is hate them. a brother who could be worse but i hate him too. friends who cant be better, yet i take them for granted. a life some ppl could only dream about. a good house, a GREAT life, so what did i do? what did i do? no one can answer that for me! i need to know! i have to know! i hate it! i did nothing! i was spoiled from the day i was born, so everything is perfect now??? what about the ppl who DESERVE a great life yet get sh*t thrown on them instead? y do I deserve the perfect life??? this is as close to heaven as earth can get! y do i get it? what did i do? how did i earn this? the man who loves me, and i feel like he deserves better too. i treat him wrong too. and he still gives me more. y do i diserve this perfect life? can someone, anyone, please tell me. y? please. it kills me not knowing. seeing so many suffer, and only being able to TRY and help. y cant i suffer too? what did i do to not suffer? how did i earn this? please, someone tell me. i need to know the answer. y?
2006-06-19
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