I'm 29 & with my first boyfriend of 8 months (I've had no gfs). I haven't had any relationships in the past, b/c I haven't wanted any, but also b/c I'm just simply not attracted to most men. Many women, however, I can usually find something beautiful about (inside or out). When I was little, I was attracted to both genders.
I was once madly in love with my boyfriend, but it seems he'd rather pine for his ex, so there you have it. Something confusing though, was after each of the first few dates we had, I would actually, physically "shudder" at the memory of (kissing, touching hands, arms, etc.). I didn't understand why I was so grossed out after the dates, when I was so happy during them.
After a while, I "got used to it" and grew to be quite comfortable, initiating everything between us, we live together, etc. Unfortunately, he's a monk who won't "deflower" me.
So I can't tell for sure. What does it mean to shudder like that & then become comfortable later? Am I a closet les?
2007-01-05
03:22:16
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