Today, I dawns on me that I have had crushes on guys, all of whom were not availible, had girlfriends etc. I have never had that situation where There was one curious or wanting to try it. That wouldn't work for me anyway, as I am talking about my emotional and love feelings for straight guys. It is my perceptions that due to my interest in mountains, outdoors, wilderness, that when I do cross into urban gay scenes, I feel out of place, and not very attractive to the gay men in that situation. There seems to be a difference between participants of urban based gay outdoor clubs and those like me who make outdoors a way of life. It seems that the guys around me in my every day natural environment are into girls only on a romantic love connection basis. I am now in a the midst of a large crush on a coworker, and at this point I grow tired of this pattern ,and I am aligning my desires to transcend this pattern, to attract AVAILIBLE and KIND love in my beautiful life. HELP!!!!
2006-12-14
05:56:58
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sierraglacier
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