I’ve been best friends w/this girl for 15 yrs. She moved in ‘97, and though we kept in touch, we have rarely seen each other since. 2 yrs or so ago, I realized I was in love w/her. But since I hardly saw her & didn’t even get to talk to her that often, it was easier for me to kind of push the thoughts of her to the side for the most part.
She’s 100% straight. She knows I’m gay, and is totally cool with it. She’s told me in the past that if she were gay she’d definitely date me. She also told me that if I ever fell in love with her that she’d go crazy, but that she’d never diss me.
Now she has moved back to the area to live w/her boyfriend (whom she’s due to have a baby with in a couple months). I know I should be happy to have her back, but I’ve found myself avoiding her cause I know that if I start hanging out with her again, my feelings for her will continue to grow. And since there’s no hope of us being together, I’ll just be hurt, and be reminded of that pain every time I see or talk to her. What should I do?
Do I keep my mouth shut and go ahead and pretend everything’s all right at the expense of my feelings? Do I tell her what’s going on, and risk making things awkward between us? How should I deal w/this situation?
2006-10-18
21:24:48
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