When I was 7 years old I was sexually abused and to this day I've never told anyone in my family. Since the age of 7 I've had this question bottled up inside of me: Why does God let bad things happen to good people? I gave up on God after the abuse happened b/c I felt God, if he exists, wouldn't have let it happen.
I'm 24 and have just begun to deal with the effects of the abuse and am dealing with post traumatic stress disorder. A few of my friends say that "everything happens for a reason." But I'm left to wonder why was I subjected to abuse while others weren't. Is it because I deserved it? My abuser, a family member, has a normal happy life, but I'm the one who's alone, depressed, crying, and suicidal. I suffer, while nothing changes for him. I lose, while he wins. Does that mean I deserved what happened? I'm not looking for pity. I just need answers. It's just that my mind won't stop thinking about it and the only sensible answer seems to be that I am being punished somehow.
2006-07-15
14:28:35
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