It is in my nature to destroy myself yet the process by which I do this is the only way I feel comfortable in life. It goes like this: I work very, very hard for what I want and then when I get it I don't want it. So why do I strive for everything that I want so dearly in life but then deny it when it's offered? It's like, all I want is the offer not the prize. It's like if I get the prize then the game is over with. I then have no fight anymore and will destroy the prize, set myself up for distruction, or just run away from it, I suppose so I can look for another fight. I guess to sum it up: I love to strive my hardest for success but I absolutely must not like success or i'd accept it when it presents itself. Why do I do this?
2006-10-27
18:20:12
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