4 weeks ago, i had a cervical biopsy. The dr.s all said i would experience lil pinch of pain after lil bleeding for a day or 2 with brown discharge from medicine they use to stop the bleeding for about two weeks. When i had my biopsy there was severe pain so bad that i pushed off the stirrups, grab the sides and started crying. After the biopsy, i had severe pain in my stomach and private area for 3 days and mild moderate pain for 5 days. Brown discharge lasted 2 weeks. Brown discharge stopped i start my cycle and all the pain came back. My cycle has not stopped and it’s been 2 and a half weeks and the dr. said that’s normal because my birth control is ending.
I have my results back from the biopsy and i have pre-cancerous cells on my cervix’s and need laser treatment surgery. The Drs said i need to get it done within the next 2 months.
now here my problem, I now i need the surgery but i am terrified of going back to a ob/gyn and getting back on the table, ever since the biopsy. Since the biopsy i cry every time i think or talk about it, even know as i write I’m crying. I had a meeting with the dr. who supervised the biopsy on Monday the 8 and he apologized and said it wasn't trying to hurt me on purpose. While he apologized and explain my results, i just sat there frozen clutching a notebook and grinding my teeth. I could not talk and i felt like i was being suffocated my mother had talk for me eventually i started talking but few words. After the dr. left and it was just me, my mom and the delegate i just bust out crying i could hold it no more. I start to talk to her and tell her how i felt about what happen. one thing that bothered me about that conversation is the fact my mother and HR rep both said I was sensitive, like I was blowing the hole thing out proportion, and I need get some counseling to get pass this. I agree with the counseling suggestion, and my mother think it her fault cause she sheltered me, that why I’m so sensitive about this.
i told them the reason i m so upset about this is I’m 23 and one man seen me naked or touch me and 2 women, and that was my mom and obgyn dr., and that 1 time 2 months prior to the biopsy. then i trusted the dr. to take care of me be truthful and not to hurt me and he did the opposite caused me pain and lied about the pain and didn't give me nothing for it. Now i can’t stop crying, i gave up on life i had and just go to work, church, and home. I even thought and tried to kill myself in the beginning. I have an overwhelming feeling of pain sorrow and anger that i can't stop or control.
now I’m asking what can i do? I’ve talk to the dr. and my mother and a couple other people about this and i still have those feelings and I’m scared.
Lawyers and law student: do think I have a good case
Everyone else: how do I get pass this and get the help I need
2007-10-11
16:16:34
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