When I was 15 I was sexually assualted by neighbor, shortly after my life took a turn for the worst, I took dads car for joyride, ran away, and ultimately spent the next 20 years in the "system" serving time, San Quentin being my last stop.I am 44 now and have done well since paroled in 1993. It was about 2 years ago that I blurted out to my wife what had happened to me, I was in shock and still am. I am very angry, angry at my folks, the neighbor, the system. I have always accepted responsibility for my wrong doing but this changes everything to me. I did what I did cause I was a victim not a bad person. I ran away cause I was scared and humiliated. I believe my life would have been different and I would have excelled far beyond where I am now. People that looked down upon me would not harbor the negative thinking if they had know what and why I became the thug I did. Can anybody help me resolve this very complex situation I am dealing with. I can't think straight anymore. Confused!
2006-09-29
21:38:53
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Michael A
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