I was sexually abused by my cousin, and only recovered the memories a year ago, and since then I've been feeling really awful alot of the time, but whenever something awful happens in the present tense, ie. now, I just feel blank, like I don't care at all.
I can't shake the feeling that maybe my feeling bad has nothing to do with the abuse at all, but then I think maybe I'm just trying to hide all my feelings away again.
I don't feel angry towards my cousin, just ... well, scared I guess. In my bad periods I just feel scared all the time, and of everyone. I feel that if anyone found out...
But then, in my good periods, I just don't care, it's like "so what? it's in the past", and I promise myself that if I start feeling bad again I should just tell someone, but I never do.
ps, I'm 16 in September
2006-09-01
08:38:50
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Flora Butter
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