I found myself feeling frustrated toward my boss, co-worker, family and friend, for no real reason. They didn't do anything to me, in fact, lots of them care for me.
But I feel frustrated then being grateful. I feel as if nobody in the world understand me and accept me as who I am, I have bipolar disorder.
And there is more and more anger storing in my chest, waiting to explore when I cannot hold it no more. I feel so lost. Though I keep telling myself don't give up, don't give up, there is always hope; life just seems so heavy to me.
I become even more emotional, wanting to cry, to shout, to break something. In the same time, I found myself worried about my health, worried about becoming schizophrenia.
My boss is also my aunt who loves me more than my parents, and at the same time, I feel the most frustrated toward her. She believes I can over come bipolar and schizophrenia, which I cannot. I had accepted that I have bipolar disorder and there is no cure yet.
2006-07-23
20:17:27
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Lune
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