Oh no this is very bad.
I have written previously about a guy I know is bad for me and has too many red flags.
Still I am being swayed by this toxic boyman.
He is nearly mid 30s and his issues are as follows:
1. -Self proclaimed vanity & shallowness. He wants lipo & hair plugs even though he is more handsome than Ewan Macgeror & a young Brad Pitt.
2. - Bad with money. Cheap and an overspender.
3. - Drinks. A lot. Regularly. 4-7 times a week.
4. - Had a horrible heartbreak when his exFiancee left him before wedding. Has admitted missing her even though its been a year.
Why on earth am I being smitten by him ?
Because he says all the right sweet things and is very charming, has shown vulnerability, somehow spins his faults to sound sad and endearing, we think the same way, same humor, both want marriage/kids, same religion/politics and I find him hella hot. And then I justify liking him because I'm aware of my own faults and still think I am worthy of love, so why not him.
I AM so screwed. I just looked in the bathroom mirror and yelled at myself how f^cked I am.
And it's not that I don't have self esteem or other options. I have several really great guys who want to date me but I feel cold towards them.
I've gone out on two dates and thought about mr. toxic the whole time.
One guy kissed me and i honestly imagined mr toxic's face instead.
If one of my friends or a daughter, if I had one , told me about this guy I would freak out on them.
I'm just comforted at least that he keeps wanting to see me and I'm putting him off. But dont know how much longer I can.
Can anyone talk sense into me ?
2007-05-31
05:39:36
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shirishria
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