I have been in a relationship for 3 years. I lost my virginity to my boyfriend a few months into the relationship. I was looking forward to it, but afterwards i was disappointed. Since that point, i have only desired to have sex very few times (and those were usually under the influence of alcohol). We would have sex, but it was when he desired to and i just went along with it.
Then we entered a long distance relationship. While apart, he cheated on me. Since then, i have felt that sex is very impersonal and not about love, but just about physical pleasure. Before he cheated, even though i didn't want to have sex, i could tolerate it. Now, i have a hard time tolerating it (it was indifferent, now it's distasteful). We are not apart anymore, so it's not painful anymore. I still like and desire kissing/touching like we did before we first had sex and i know that the cheating has affected me, but besides the very first time, i still haven't really "wanted" sex. Am i asexual?
2007-04-20
11:07:43
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