I love him.
No matter how much I love him. There is only a certain point that I can reach with my emotions and heart and I can get no closer to him. I cannot get close.
I went through hell all my life. I am used to caous. I am used to everything blowing up in my face. Used to getting hurt deeply. Used to those the closest to me, hurting me the most. I resent my biological and my step father.
Now, I am trying to be in a relationship.
Everything he says I automatically believe he is lying to me and try to figure out what the truth really is.
I don't trust him to be sincere or genuine. It is like I cannot believe that he is truly in love with me.
I resent him, sometimes for no reason. I keep waiting for him to hurt me.
I keep trying to figure out how he is manipulating me.
My whole past, I thought was behind me. Now, that I am in a relationship. Everyone that has hurt me, all the violence I saw, and etc-from my past. I keep waiting for him to turn into.
2007-12-25
03:00:26
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