Three years ago my boyfriend who broke it off by cheating on me, and having his new lover move into our apt before I moved out... now, three years later I have been back in my hometown just working. I have no friends, or any interest in making any. I come home to my ghetto apt everyday after work and either get stoned or zone out to video games. When I'm not distracting myself I cry uncontrollably, and wish someone were there to listen or to put their arm around my shoulder and help me. I'm gay, my family is extremely homophobic and I don't feel safe turning to them.... or anyone for that matter. I feel incapabile of doing anything to remedy this. I'm not suicidal, just lost, lonley and in a dark and scary place. I have disturbing nightmares about vacant lots, being accused of terrible crimes and running from the man, and men with no faces who want to hurt me... and if I'm not stoned then I don't sleep at all.
This is a living hell, now what?
2007-05-17
13:23:21
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Greg
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