I try to be faithful, and true, and pure, but I don't succeed,
I sorta have depression, but it's during those times I actually look within myself. I realize that I'm not as good as I thought I was, nor near where I want to be. I've broken a lot of the 10 commandments, and other laws of God. And during those times I look within my heart I just feel depressed and lonely. I feel as if I've failed God and myself. And this isn't the first time either that I've felt totally disconnected from God. I know some of you will probably post that God can forgive me. But I know if I was God I wouldn't forgive myself. I'd never leave God, and never have in the past; but I'm not so sure God hasn't left me.
One thing that bothers me though, is I started having sex with my gf, which is fornication which is also technically adultery. She's my only one, only because I believe one day we could be together. But I don't know how to tell her that I can't do it anymore, or any alternatives.
Thanks
2007-05-13
22:27:16
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