My boyfriend is convinced I was sexually abused as a child. I was exposed to many sexual situations that I shouldn’t have been yes, but not directly. I was also raised in a very strict religion, and sex was considered to be a dirty and nasty thing unless done with a marriage partner. Even then it seemed like it was dirty. I know I was scared from this, and it has affected my current relationships. Now I believe that if someone wants to have sex, they can do so, of course there are consequences like STD’s. However, I have tried to avoid any emotional connection allow with sex with anyone because I don’t want to end up feeling used by a guy. I know that sometimes I don’t even want a commitment and just want a fling, but I have been unable to do so, certainly the times I have tried I felt rejected. I guess with or without sex if someone doesn’t want you you will feel bad anyway. But my point is, is my current stand on sex & love caused by my being right, or by my upbringing? Should I make a connection with sex and love or is sex just a pleasurable act that doesn’t have to have any tie with love? I never felt any feeling of love when I had sex with my first love, it was just about pleasure. However, I did feel love when we cuddled, or hugged, or just looked into each other’s eyes. Am I afraid to open up? Or is there just no opening up to do?
2006-10-17
15:23:26
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