My gf's past lovers stop me from sleeping. I hate to be tied to such a traditional attitude, but I can't to abandon it. Now, it is hard to find women that are not experienced. I don’t hate them; I understand their reasons. I even seem to like experienced women. I have loved all three women I’ve been with, but their number of past men (5-12) hurt me. They’ve all been with more men than I have been with women (3). I hate to seem like a religious fundamentalist, but the mere existence of these men wracks my brain. The longer I love, the more assurances of their love I have, the more this problem vexs me. With each girl, my reason for ending it was tied to the pain caused the previous men.
I hate myself for being intolerant. I know their experiences shaped them into the caring, sophisticated women I love. I don’t care about my relative sexual prowess.
I am a Neanderthal needing to be the most special, the most loved, the only one. It stops blossoming of my love.
2006-08-13
20:04:16
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