I'm 29 years old, live in Northern Mississippi, & I'm gay. I have a family that loves me and yet will never accept who I really am inside. I've lived for many years in shame and in hiding. I have few friends, because I don't let them close to me. I've tried counseling, and going to gay support groups. But I'm not a typical gay person and thus don't fit in with them either.
To complicate matters, I'm a southern baptist. I lie awake at night crying, & thinking I'm going to hell for being who I am.. and yet.. I've tried everything to change. It's just not a choice or a preference.. it's the way I am.
I stay depressed and suicidal due to my sexual orientation and have yet to talk with any other gay male experiencing anything like what I am going through. Every gay male I chat with online is so concerned with "how big is it?", "do you want to hook up?", or "how much do you weigh?" that I've yet to find a "normal minded" gay man to befriend. Is something wrong with me?
2007-11-02
16:43:25
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