my life has always been like existing in black hole...cold and alone....isolated.
the few contacts ive made through this site that i added to yahoo messenger, except one very nice lady...a good friend - have all deserted me and dont contact me anymore.
most of them for statistic purpouses were white american females.
its like they've been influenced to not talk or contact me anymore..
grrrrrrrrrrrrr !!
i feel so angry and bitter....never having experienced any happiness or fullfillment in my life....only pain and misery, rejection, sexual abuse, bullying, victimization.
im clenching my teeth everyday im so annoyed....i wish i would of battered the bullys heads in with a wooden fence post instead of letting them bully me.
i have BPD, have made no friends in life, never been in a relationship ever..im 30 years old.
all i see around me is happy, grinning people...grinning yahoo avatars with them cartoon broad grins....i see things that ive never had mirrored back at me DAILY !
2007-12-20
03:44:27
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