lately i've felt really empty.
and lonely.
just craving human existance. someone to talk to, someone to share my uttermost thoughts with.
my skin is craving iron. and the slide of it across my skin.
god, i don't know how long it's been. ..it's been a long time.
lately that's all i've been able to think about. just all day, and all night.
i thought i was doing so well. i thought i was becoming happy.
it happends EVERY time.
everytime i finally think i'm doing great, i come crashing down.
i wonder if during those periods when i think i'm happy, i'm just getting confused and i'm tell myself that i am. when i'm not.
i dont know if i'm doing that
i just want someone to confide in. someone to trust. someone to love.
it hurts so bad.
at work, there were these two guys, customers, everytime i walked past them they would snicker, and stare at me.
and then when i'd be out of eyesite they'd stop.
sometimes i'd walk by just to see if they were laughing at ME.
..they were.
my boss always asks me if i'm alright. do i really look THAT sad?
every 5 minutes. he's like "are you okay rebecca?" "..yeah" "you...SURE?"
price yelled at me because i asked him for $10's & $20s. i didn't know. he didn't have to yell.
GOD. all i want is some friends. that's all i want.
i'm not close to stephanie anymore. so now i have no one else. no body. not one person.
and i just one someone. just someone.
i can't believe i'm crying over this. everything is so stupid.
i'm so stupid.
should i just end it all?
2007-01-28
16:43:56
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