I have been cutting for a year now. Most people say you can't do it in moderation, but my cuts have not gotten any deeper than they were, and my urges haven't been much bigger. Granted, it is addictive. I stopped for a couple months thinking it was over, but I started again. As much as people say this all the time, I honestly think I have it under control. This isn't a suicide attempt, to be honest, suicide scares me a lot. And I don't hate myself enough to do so, I actually like myself. It's merely liking the feeling I get afterwards. I don't think I'm closer to suicide than anyone else is, people just have different ways of relieving stress, such as writing, or running, which can still not be healthy if they are ignoring the problem. It's all how you deal with it emotionally, right? You may not understand, and I may not understand why eating relieves pain, or running a mile. I guess I don't understand...I'm just confused on the subject.
2007-09-01
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