im scared too face my reality, why? id rather go to the front line in iraq then deal with my issues, my repressed emotions. the past 11 years have been emotionless, stale, no joy, happiness, feelings at all, just a sea of self hatred, anxiety, confusion, depression.
its come to a point now i think of ending it all, every month passing it only adds to my mental state. i have nothing to look forward too, i am alone, i view people as empty shells like myself, i cant connect to anyone. i hardly leave my house, everytime i do i become overwhelemd with fear and anxiety and want to vomit.
i think crying, or showing myself is a sign of weakness, and people can see into my soul when i unleash my emotions and that worries me....whats with me?....am i different from other people, i am sensitive to an extreme point. the days are getting long now, im lost at what to do, im so tired.
2007-09-04
07:55:00
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17 answers
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mecicoplajjer
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