what can you do when you feel depressed, empty & alone, with goals & dreams that seem to far away & impossible

Question

to achieve or reach?
im sat here in my one room apartment very upset. im 30 years old now, ive lived alone for two years now. but ive endured a very hard and traumatic life with abuse and victimization.

unfortunatly i have bpd which is a very tough illness to treat so ive heard, and a long mental health history as my problems started at 16.
i am waiting for therapy right now.
but i sit here everyday feeling alone, depressed and unmotivated.
i sit here thinking about my goals and dreams, which are, to move away from the uk, to immigrate to a hot sunny climate. turn over a new leaf, build a new life.
but that seems impossible and to far away to ever accomplish, and i feel overwhelmed by it...
i worry i might be doomed to remain in britain in my one bedroom apartment forever, with no hope of ever getting out. like a stuck feeling. like im incapable of changing it.

i was born in the south of france, came to britain at 6. and iam native american heritage to.
i really dont

want to stay in britain..
but i worry that im trapped and wont be capable of getting
out and building a new life..
or that ill be stopped or prevented..because i have paranoia
to...feeling there are people out to get me, and that ill be prevented
somehow...my psychiatrist called it a distrust of people because
of what id been through.
but i do desperatly want to leave britain, i dont relate to the brits
or their way of life.
can anyone help or advise?...im hoping for sensible, intellingence
answers.

thanks lesley but im not looking for pity or anyone to cry for me...thats not what this question is about regards

Answer 1

Well, the one good thing is you're talking about it and not keeping it pinned up inside. Opening up is a good start so I'd say you're doing the right thing.
Since I'm in the U.S. and there's so called meds to help with what you have, I'd say stay away from those. I don't know how medications are where you are but here, they will make you feel the way you're feeling.
First, I would write down why I'm feeling the way I'm feeling. Next I will write down what makes me happy or feel better, then I would start focusing on the things that make me feel better. I know it sounds corny(dumb, stupid) but if you begin to focus on things that make you happy and start doing what makes you happy, your outcome will begin to start getting a little better. It's a process that won't get better over night.
Also, watch this movie called 'The Secret'. You will have to watch this whenever you begin to feel down about things. Watching this may help you to start thinking positively.

Answer 2

This is what helps me. If I'm truly doing OK spiritually - reading my Bible, serving etc. and I still feel empty, then some of these things have helped in the past. 1. Take a nap. Quite often, I feel empty when I'm burned out. 2. Make sure I'm eating healthy. 3. Go for a long walk and pray. 4. Spend time with friends. 5. Buy myself a Christmas present. Shopping just to shop isn't a good habit. Sometimes though, there's something I've been eying for a long time and it lifts my mood to have something new. I'm not talking a new BMW or anything. Something that's in my budget. For example: One year I bought a stereo receiver. I know someone that bought himself new clothes and a new haircut. Stuff like that.

Answer 3

Hello,
I have BPI also and I know what your going through. The wait for therapy and for meds to start working is sometimes hard. You need to stick with your therapy. You didn't really state if you are taking meds or not, but if you aren't I would suggest starting them. There are quite a few out there that work very well, they may take a few weeks to start working, but stick with them they WILL start working!! Some work better than others, and you may have to try different ones and different combinations until you find one's that work. I had to try about 3 years worth of meds until I found the current combination that worked for me, but until I found that combination, I also had psychotherapy (talk therapy) along with it. The psychotherapy helps the doctors monitor your condition and they can alert the doctor prescribing the medications if they think there is something seriously wrong, like side effects or other unwanted effects. I don't know if this has helped, but keep trying, it WILL get better if you keep trying!!!

Answer 4

yahoo answers wont help you, i been writing the same question for months, nearly a year and i dont get anywhere it just a thing where i can read peeps responses to make me feel a lil better that night but the problem doesnt go untill i decide to get professional help, and you should too, its the only way to make us happy again so we can do normal things.

Answer 5

get out of Britain, its too cloudy and rainy. go some place sunny like Spain, learn the language and culture. you will learn more about yourself. read books on your depression and lonelyness. read books of self help and improvng your self image. Just do something and get out of the 1 room flat. you are not the only one in th world dealing with this. you can only help yourself. go someplace sunny.

Answer 6

You made me cry! please dont feel alone - I know that its hard - and that physically you are alone at the moment - but Im in England too - and Its a lovely sunny day - and someone has answered your cry - so - my name is Lesley, my life has not been trouble free - but I pray - my God answers my prayers, he protects me - he encourages me - he loves me - he cares for me - he puts people in my life who will do the same - Im sorry that people have been cruel to you - I will pray for you - dear soul - dont feel alone - God cares for you too - whether you believe or not is not relevant here - ask him to help you - he is waiting to help and to love you xx

Answer 7

never give up,...and keep focused on your goals, no matter what anyone else says...and someday, this will all be behind you...I like what the other answerer said, also about God and Jesus