Okay, I'm not quite your average teenager(or maybe I am, no one is sure yet), I'm ALWAYS sad. I cut myself with razors, beat myself up, and constantly have a very low sense of self-esteem. I'm in the last stages of summer away from school, and insted of having fun with my friends, I tend to go to a room turn the light off, turn my mp3 player on, and laydown entirely unvisible under a blanket. And here's the kicker, everytime I'm about to tell someone how I feel, my emotions go on the defensive and I put out a happy sence of feeling. Is it just that on some sub-concious level I don't want to be happy? People say my life is good.....but I don't really think so. I tend to shy away from help and people entirely, without even knowing it. I have a theripist, and a loving mother that are willing to listen......but im not willing to say anything. I believe my mother(diva_dan74) is the only reason I haven't killed myself yet. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2007-07-23
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