im clinically depressed and take anti-depressants. i live alone and the loneliness has been getting to me. (please dont say to go meet ppl, i try but its hard for me, and others to get to know me)...
anyways today i was driving and i totally blanked out. i had no control over my thoughts, concentration, even eye focus. i had no expression and just felt so numb, i have never felt this way ever. i started focusing on objects and they all started to look fake. i tried calling my mom and when she didnt answer i just started to cry in my car. i got home and started freaking out, and all that i could think of was suicide...the pain and confusion was just too much... sadly not existing seems better than anything. im so tired of it all , of life, my life...but i cant let go.
life may be great, but mine surely is not.
is it the medicine? is this a nervous breakdown? i havent done this since before my med
2007-02-27
13:39:30
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eMteMind
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