I have serious problems making new friends. When I’m in a social situation I clam up and find it incredibly hard to talk to anyone- I usually end up looking for a reason to escape. When I end up talking to new people I come across as cold and unfriendly, even though I don’t mean to. My voice is so quiet that I often have to repeat myself, and if I try to speak up louder I sound harsh to my own ears. I don’t know why I can’t carry on a normal, friendly conversation with a stranger, but I’m in my second year of Junior College and I’ve not made any new friends because I have so much trouble just putting myself out there. I avoid the college parties and social events because I dread the crowds and possible interaction. I even decided not to enter a poetry contest that I probably could have won, because I would have been required to read my writing in front of others in a casual, party-like setting. I don’t generally care what people think of me- I don’t try to avoid getting weird looks (I tend to dress on the strange side) but having to speak terrifies me.
I have one good friend from high-school who I sometimes go out with, but because of our work schedules I don’t see her or even talk to her often. I hardly have a social life at all- I only go out occasionally and usually with family members. The only friends I can claim to have made recently are people I’ve met over the internet, who live in other states or countries, which I realize is pretty sad. I’m extremely shy and I always have been, but I’m wondering if I might have an anxiety disorder. This is seriously causing problems for me- I don’t want to be a friendless homebody forever!
2006-11-08
09:11:28
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piratewench
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