I'm a white male. My best friend is a black man of my age. We've been friends for years. Growing up I had a lot of diversity throughout school and my family weren't racist in any shape or form. But, here is the problem.
I met this girl a week ago. She is wonderful! She's out going, funny, we just seem to hit it off. She's asian. But her first lover, and only boyfriend before me, was a black man.
The moment I heard that, for some reason, regardless of all the fantastic years with my black friend, Leon, the stereotypes that I had heard began to rush through my mind.
Before we had sex she mentioned his size and the things he did sexually, etc. And the stereotypes began to bother me even more. We had sex that night, and things went great (at least I thought) but despite the wonderful night, the inadequate feelings I had remained.
Now I refer to the original question, am I a closet racist? I don't want to think like that, but when I look at her, I think of THEM. I need some advice.
2007-06-15
08:11:38
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Noah T
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