I just need to get this off my chest. I sit here yet again wondering who my real friends are. All my life I have been used and just thrown away when people were done with me. I dont get close to people because I end up getting hurt. I dont like to be hurt so when im sad I smile, but it gets harder and harder each day to smile. I feel like ive been used yet again and now im being thrown away because they're just bored with me. I learn a new thing wrong with me each day. I am at the doctor 3 times a week. No one knows this about me. No one sees because I smile. but now I guess things are just getting hard ,and the people I thought would be there for me aren't, because they're bored with me. they know the smile isn't real, but they just pretend like they dont know. I guess im just sad. Its hard for me to admit that because I cant hide it anymore. I've been hiding it for so long. Amanda: you were my best friend. I trusted you with everything. Gosh why did you have to do that to me. Why did you leave me like that. You could have called me.. i would have been there for you just like you always were for me. I always want to wake up from a bad dream and see your smiling face again. Your smile was contagious. I miss you SO much. Today is your birthday. Its been one year but it seems like just yesterday we were at the mall together laughing about anything. Wow I wish I could talk to you right now, I have so much to tell you. You were amazing. you will always be my best friend. I love you amanda
2007-12-16
05:46:15
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