I just need to get this off my chest. I sit here yet again wondering who my real friends are. All my life I have been used and just thrown away when people were done with me. I dont get close to people because I end up getting hurt. I dont like to be hurt so when im sad I smile, but it gets harder and harder each day to smile. I feel like ive been used yet again and now im being thrown away because they're just bored with me. I learn a new thing wrong with me each day. I am at the doctor 3 times a week. No one knows this about me. No one sees because I smile. but now I guess things are just getting hard ,and the people I thought would be there for me aren't, because they're bored with me. they know the smile isn't real, but they just pretend like they dont know. I guess im just sad. Its hard for me to admit that because I cant hide it anymore. I've been hiding it for so long. Amanda: you were my best friend. I trusted you with everything. Gosh why did you have to do that to me. Why did you leave me like that. You could have called me.. i would have been there for you just like you always were for me. I always want to wake up from a bad dream and see your smiling face again. Your smile was contagious. I miss you SO much. Today is your birthday. Its been one year but it seems like just yesterday we were at the mall together laughing about anything. Wow I wish I could talk to you right now, I have so much to tell you. You were amazing. you will always be my best friend. I love you amanda
2007-12-16 05:46:15 · 10 answers · asked by Anonymous in Family & Relationships ➔ Friends
Right now I feel a little sorrow for u because you seem to have lost a true friend. But at the same time I know what u go thru because I face the same thing at times. I dont get close to ppl either they always seem to use you fro their needs then they are gone. I had to learn to look out forme first!!
I know what its like to hide things from ppl while you are going thru it on your own. I do it everyday, its not at all easy. But I keep going because i know that no matter what I have to be there for those ppl because they dont understand how to function thru life with out me. We all have a purpose in life for ppl like you and me its to be around for others.
We dont always realize it but we do get our rewards in a higher way thanother ppl can understand.Most of the ppl we help or are there for are truly jealous of us because they cant be the strong ppl that we are. They cant take on the challenges of life and handle it like we do. sometimes we lod=se ppl that are really there for us, for u it seems Amanda was the one,for me it was my dad. But losing him taught me to be a much stronger person. And as long as you can remember those times that you all spent together then you havent truly lost her at all.
It may sound strange but I still talk to my dad. doing that helps me get thru some of my toughest days.I dont worry about ppl who as you say get bored of you they are self-centered and shallow. If thats the case you dont need to be involved withthem anyway. Noone can be a better friend to you than yourself.
You have to LOVE U first!! Then you can open up to others,search your heart first to find the problem within. Make yourself happy first then it will bring the right ppl to you. Dont try to make them happy first!!
A smile neva hurts but the thing that it hides can have a bigger hurt than anythng in life. I'm sure you will began to see changes if you give yourself a real chance to live life.It has to be about you thou stop worrying about others. If you are going to a doc 3x's a week, the things you are going thru cant be helping your health get any better.
Start with u first. Like I said I live the samethings on a daily basis,but the difference is; I started to do things for me first. It tooktime but I feel alot happier now then 2-3years ago!
2007-12-16 06:06:37 · answer #1 · answered by mousey 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Say your sorry and get on living the best life you can... there will always be someone to hurt us... this is life ... but alot of people will love you if you let them.. go out and help the needy or a nursing home...you stop being so needy and maybe people won't be bored with you...learn all you can... now you have had your pity party... now get up and enjoy your life....stay positive and wonderful people will be looking for you.... your smiles has got to come from the inside of you...i DON'T MEAN TO SOUNDS SO HARD...but this is your life ... you get to choose how you wish to live it.... so someone let you down ... there are all kinds of people would love to have a good friend like you.... I wish you a beautiful day....
2007-12-16 06:01:17 · answer #2 · answered by Sharon C 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
GOSH!!!!!!! That is some hard core s#@t, you sound like a sweet girl but I will say something that I never thought I would tell anyone, people treat you like s#@t so do something, get fed up and don't smile anymore, ruffle feathers, kick @$$, take names, let them know how you feel, if something annoys you about someone, tell them, they might change, and maybe your friends will stop ditching you every time you get mopy and just tell you top get it together, because if they do tell you this, they will be inclined to help you get it together.
Grow a pair sweet heart, Good luck.
2007-12-16 05:55:36 · answer #3 · answered by Roqueez 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i hope i am right i am so sorry for the loss of your friend that was a very nice tribute to your friend in this life people dont have many friends and you will know who to trust and you will learn you will be hurt by people its a life lesson something you will always experience so young lady we are out here listening merry christmas
2007-12-16 05:51:51 · answer #4 · answered by dreamweaver 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i'm sorry that I in simple terms smiled, bypass take in golf or another pastime, have a social existence invite her alongside if she is going with you it may convey you the two closer at the same time if not you may get to make some acquaintances and have some exciting. go away the bottle on the shelf and in simple terms get a existence.
2016-10-01 22:51:14 · answer #5 · answered by ? 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You sound depressed - you say you are at the doctor 3x a week, maybe you should talk to him/her about antidepressants. They could make a world of difference for you; I hope you get help.
2007-12-16 05:50:15 · answer #6 · answered by eldots53 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
...so.... Amanda committed suicide? is that right? Look, you sound like you're at the point where you need to seek some prefessional help. Sounds like depression, tell you doctor.
2007-12-16 05:53:14 · answer #7 · answered by who-wants-to-know 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i think you're bi curious...lmfao just kidding ...hope that made you smile...listen if she did whatever she did to you then she's not your FRIEND get over her cause friends don't hurt friends...move on & feel better cause being down & miserable isn't hurting anyone except yourself...
2007-12-16 05:51:29 · answer #8 · answered by crazykiaray23 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
vent away. why dont you try and be the bigger person in the relationship and apologize first maybe she will say shes sorry too
2007-12-16 05:50:49 · answer #9 · answered by JEN 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
just say ur sorry....
2007-12-16 05:48:59 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋