The past year, I have wanted so badly to lose weight. I'm not obese, but have gained a lot of weight. I try to diet, but I always fail. And I try to work out, but I just don't have the stamina. Last week, I ate an entire cake (and batter) on impulse. This isn't typical of me, until I tell myself I need to diet. Then I rebel MYSELF. After this, I felt sick to my stomach; so I went to the bathroom and made myself vomit. 4-5 times in a row.
Yesterday, I tried to fast on only cranberry juice, to clean my system out. At night, I ate 3 cheese sticks and apple sauce. I'm not sure if the food made me sick, or the fact that I just ate all that, but I made myself vomit again. 3-4 Times.
Now, I want to again. I just ate a large panini, and for some reason I want to purge. I'm not sure if I am scared about gaining weight, or if I just hate feeling full.
I would appreciate only serious and polite answers. I'm really looking for real advice, not smart comments to make me feel worse.
2007-07-28
15:52:27
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Diet & Fitness